Labor of Love...

Ching Ching Jackpot, I think I am in love people(in the words of 50). Papi is the most sweetest person I have ever known. I hate doing this long distance relationship shit, but if its going to help us build stronger ties, so be it. We talk every night, before going, while I was there, and after I went to Baltimore to see him. Really, it felt too damn good just chillin with him and being in his presence alone speaks volumes. Last entry, I explained in brief detail on what he is about. This time, I am ready to get into it a lil bit more. He came at a time when I was worrying about a lot of shit. I know that it three months too quick to fall for someone, but a person can never control their feelings and impulses. Even though when I first met him, I was not looking for a relationship, because I was not ready to even walk down that path and put myself out there for heartbreak again. And on top of that, he has a son, which makes it even harder to go back to that route since I have been scorned by that situation once before. I don't have any doubt that he loves me, but I just have to be sure of myself and know what I am getting into once again.

Papi told me the other day over the wire that he doesn't like me out in Jersey with a lot of drama. So he is trying to look at townhouses or homes in the Belair-Edison area for us to live in when I get here. If he doesn't find anything good, I'll be put up in an apartment and he'll handle the rent and that leaves me to do the rest.

Entry Update:
I didn't mean to spazz out in the last entry, but I was steaming mad when I typed that entry out. Ever since that day, I called him to congratulat him on his wedding and I told him "I hope you have a good wedding and a good life; you have the number and you know the address, have a happy marriage, guess I'll talk to you some other time" and bowed out gracefully. However, when we first started, it was not, I repeat, NOT intentional to even get into a sexual relationship at all, let alone getting caught up. But you know shit happens, right. And we got caught out there and got emotionally attached. I know in the game, you cant do that... but shit happens....

Lastly, I found a part time gig as a bus attendant. I decided to swallow my pride and take the bullshit job. The reason why I took it is because it is up the street from my house and my school and I can easily get to it via two feet. But the catch is that I have to be there at six thirty in the morning. We take the children with special needs, or different classifications to their district schools and also take them home as well. I get off at 9:30AM and don't have to be back until 1:30PM and we don't officially get off until 4:30, so basically, it's like a full time job. I work with a bunch of broads and I am anti-social so I just sit back and observe people from a distance. People can be so phony, it is a shame.
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Show Her Some Love People... Her Trials and Tribulations in North Carolina by the way of Irvington, NJ