I was born on this day 24 years ago.
I would never think I will live to see another year
im deathly scared
out of fear.
one door closes.
another one opens.
I wonder what this upcoming year has in store for me.
new adventures/new stories to tell
a newfound sense of self
one step closer to my untimely demise.
but i am here.
yeah, i am here.
as you kinda figured it out, today is my birthday. yeah, your favorte Jersey Girl is gettin up there in years. been working and going to school, however, that has been taking up most of my time so you already know. I am not gonna stay around since I am going to relax and chill for this day until this weekend and thats when the party will begin.
till then, check you later.
love you bloggers.
11.17.2005
9.28.2005
I Was M.I.A. Eh?
I finally decided it was time for a new look.... but it was not by choice:
see, what had happened was, I had a style called the quick weave in ma hair. but unfortunately, it tangled ma hair pretty fucking bad so I had to cut it into a new style. I may be posting the pics tomorrow if I have time on my hands and things of that nature.
Sorry for not keeping up with the everchanging blogsphere, unfortunately workin and school has been taking up most of ma time and being that ma comp crashed, I have to use the school's comps till I buy a new laptop altogether. Plus, ma moms is in the hospital and shit. I am getting worried cause I am not there to check up on ha since ha dude has to work and ma sister stays running the streets for what? For nothing.. I think I am getting a lil bit personal on ma blog. So I am going to keep in funky and stick to ma usual silly self. Besides, I don't feel like getting all sentimental and shit, sheesh, if not, I'll break down and cry......
NewsFlash:
Moms is out the hospital and doing quite well... considering that she got out today. I'm about to tend to her and make sure she straight.
Now on with the new pics and improved look....
I hope you likey. Up Close and Personal With The New Hair
Me styling with the Blazer and Matching Earrings... Color Coordination is Surely A Must.. Ya Dig?
I decided to take off the glasses and see how a pic would come out... not bad at all for a selfshot.
Now ya'll know that I am all for the grown and sexy look....
WTF was I lookin at? I don't know.. I think I was about to cough ma lungs out.
I need suggestions on how to stop coughing asap. I have been hacking for the past two weeks and I don't know how to stop this shit. Thing is I don't feel sick at all. HELP ME PLEASE.
Plus I have a confession. I have a thing for boyshorts and wifebeaters. I can't sleep without them on at night. I'd admit it, I don't have the best body in the world, but at bedtime, anything goes. I promise to show pics tomorrow after work.
Gotta Go....
See Ya When I See Ya.
P.S. Like I said, sorry for lack of updating and things of that nature. I promise when I get enough time, I will update more often.
see, what had happened was, I had a style called the quick weave in ma hair. but unfortunately, it tangled ma hair pretty fucking bad so I had to cut it into a new style. I may be posting the pics tomorrow if I have time on my hands and things of that nature.
Sorry for not keeping up with the everchanging blogsphere, unfortunately workin and school has been taking up most of ma time and being that ma comp crashed, I have to use the school's comps till I buy a new laptop altogether. Plus, ma moms is in the hospital and shit. I am getting worried cause I am not there to check up on ha since ha dude has to work and ma sister stays running the streets for what? For nothing.. I think I am getting a lil bit personal on ma blog. So I am going to keep in funky and stick to ma usual silly self. Besides, I don't feel like getting all sentimental and shit, sheesh, if not, I'll break down and cry......
NewsFlash:
Moms is out the hospital and doing quite well... considering that she got out today. I'm about to tend to her and make sure she straight.
Now on with the new pics and improved look....
I hope you likey. Up Close and Personal With The New Hair
Me styling with the Blazer and Matching Earrings... Color Coordination is Surely A Must.. Ya Dig?
I decided to take off the glasses and see how a pic would come out... not bad at all for a selfshot.
Now ya'll know that I am all for the grown and sexy look....
WTF was I lookin at? I don't know.. I think I was about to cough ma lungs out.
I need suggestions on how to stop coughing asap. I have been hacking for the past two weeks and I don't know how to stop this shit. Thing is I don't feel sick at all. HELP ME PLEASE.
Plus I have a confession. I have a thing for boyshorts and wifebeaters. I can't sleep without them on at night. I'd admit it, I don't have the best body in the world, but at bedtime, anything goes. I promise to show pics tomorrow after work.
Gotta Go....
See Ya When I See Ya.
P.S. Like I said, sorry for lack of updating and things of that nature. I promise when I get enough time, I will update more often.
9.08.2005
Thoughts on Katrina/Ma Vacation
I'm back.
Simple as that.
But you know I am going to have something to say about the recent tragedy of Hurricane Katrina. So here it goes:
Where was I when the hurricane hit? I think I was on my way home from Durham, NC via Amtrak. I didn't know that as I was on my way home, people in the Gulf Coast was being homeless, not by nature, but by Mother Nature. I know that it is mad late to write about it but I have probable reasons to why I am delaying ma entries... working and going to school are a bitch....anywho...i definitely feel for the people of Lousiana and the surrounding areas. And it does not help at all since it was my people, meaning(African Americans and other minorities) that have been tragically affected. Bush needs to get impeached asap and get the ecomony back in order.
on with the new pics from vacation.... I have been unofficially owned by this dude named Alex from Durham.....
This is ma nephew.. and noooo ya'll chickens can't have him. Ya'll have to go thru me, the Little Big Bad Auntie first.
Blunt Rolling 101.. I got a B+ I guess.
The "Bootylicious Mirror Shot" be4 we went out.
Now you know I have to show a couple of pics of my inspiration. She is the reason why I get up and grind everyday. Without further ado.. Mariah... ma babygirl... well she's nearly a teenager now. In this picture, I gave her a journal instead of clothes. I want her to write since I think she has the natural born talent with a pen and a pad, just like her auntie.
She's getting ha young Model on...
This is our form of communication... we got chirps...
Looks like I had a fantabulous time in Durham, NC. Ya'll come thru and they'll show you how them country dudes get down.
Next Blog catch up....look above.
Simple as that.
But you know I am going to have something to say about the recent tragedy of Hurricane Katrina. So here it goes:
Where was I when the hurricane hit? I think I was on my way home from Durham, NC via Amtrak. I didn't know that as I was on my way home, people in the Gulf Coast was being homeless, not by nature, but by Mother Nature. I know that it is mad late to write about it but I have probable reasons to why I am delaying ma entries... working and going to school are a bitch....anywho...i definitely feel for the people of Lousiana and the surrounding areas. And it does not help at all since it was my people, meaning(African Americans and other minorities) that have been tragically affected. Bush needs to get impeached asap and get the ecomony back in order.
on with the new pics from vacation.... I have been unofficially owned by this dude named Alex from Durham.....
This is ma nephew.. and noooo ya'll chickens can't have him. Ya'll have to go thru me, the Little Big Bad Auntie first.
Blunt Rolling 101.. I got a B+ I guess.
The "Bootylicious Mirror Shot" be4 we went out.
Now you know I have to show a couple of pics of my inspiration. She is the reason why I get up and grind everyday. Without further ado.. Mariah... ma babygirl... well she's nearly a teenager now. In this picture, I gave her a journal instead of clothes. I want her to write since I think she has the natural born talent with a pen and a pad, just like her auntie.
She's getting ha young Model on...
This is our form of communication... we got chirps...
Looks like I had a fantabulous time in Durham, NC. Ya'll come thru and they'll show you how them country dudes get down.
Next Blog catch up....look above.
8.18.2005
Heavy Reflections Updated
Generally Speaking:
Been busy wrapping up for the summer semester. Had ma final exam for psychology. I passed with a B-. The girl is finally free to do whatever I want until september 7th 05(the fall semester begins). What to do? Where to go? I don't know. I decided to go to NC to chill with da nephew and blaze a lot of L's. In fact, he does not know I am coming there. Only his friend Alex knows, but thats another issue within itself. I will be there for a week. I'll promise to bring pics for those who haven't been there.
*Update*
Tomorrow is ma trip to Durham, NC... I know that it will be a massively long bus ride via the Greyhound, but I did this before so it's nothing. I most definitely earned my vacation. As much ish as I have been thru this year, shit, I should move there, but not until I hang out with Miss Enigma.
Surprisingly:
♥ Papi ♥ sent me an email talking about what happened with me and him. But he is on vacation from work and I'm getting ready to wrap up class... talk about bad timing for him to email me and what not. Ya'll know I had all kinds of emotions running thru my poor little mind.... He knows that I am an emotional person and when he hit me up after class, thats all it took to get me going again. But it's cool though. Ya'll know I am a strong-willed chick. Hopefully, we can have a talk later and see if we can work on rebuilding the "situationship" that we once had. It's going to be very hard, but you can be stagnant if you hold grudges and feuds with people. Very hard.... But I'll get at him later on tonight....I'm getting all teary-eyed thinking about him.....
*Update*
Dude is back at work now. Papi and I had a semi long talk about everything over his vacation. As we speak, we are communicating more and acting more civil towards one another. Come to find out that we still love each other more than ever. I may go see him tomorrow since ma layover is in Downtown Baltimore. But knowing the two of us, we aint gonna want to leave each other when the time comes.
Happy News
I just found out ma dude Jeffie is graduating college in September. He is getting his associates in Associates in Computer Information Systems. I am so friqqin proud of him. We have been there for each other since the beginning of time. I knew him for nearly 2.5 years and to see him at this point, makes me inspired. People like that make me wanna work extra hard to get that degree and to kick down doors with steel timbs on. Shit, I am setting the tone in ma family for them to go to college and earn their degrees in spite of the negative hardships they have to face growing up. I want them to say "JerseyGirl(Given Name Inserted) did it, so I can do it as well." I know whats it's like to be in the hood and to have hardships come by. I can honestly say that I busted ma ass to get where I am at that point when that day comes.
*Update*
I am still proud of my friend, Jeff. We should be linking up together before our schedules get more hectic than ever. Tomorrow is my niece ♥ ♥Mariah's♥ ♥ 12th birthday. I brought her a journal so whenever she feels creative or needing to vent, she can turn to her "companion". I raised her from yay high and now she is maturing into the young lady she is becoming. I am extremely proud of her despite the hardships she had to face without her birth mother(which happens to be my sister)being in her life, in fact, she might as well be child.
Gotta Go, Gotta Leave
Been busy wrapping up for the summer semester. Had ma final exam for psychology. I passed with a B-. The girl is finally free to do whatever I want until september 7th 05(the fall semester begins). What to do? Where to go? I don't know. I decided to go to NC to chill with da nephew and blaze a lot of L's. In fact, he does not know I am coming there. Only his friend Alex knows, but thats another issue within itself. I will be there for a week. I'll promise to bring pics for those who haven't been there.
*Update*
Tomorrow is ma trip to Durham, NC... I know that it will be a massively long bus ride via the Greyhound, but I did this before so it's nothing. I most definitely earned my vacation. As much ish as I have been thru this year, shit, I should move there, but not until I hang out with Miss Enigma.
Surprisingly:
♥ Papi ♥ sent me an email talking about what happened with me and him. But he is on vacation from work and I'm getting ready to wrap up class... talk about bad timing for him to email me and what not. Ya'll know I had all kinds of emotions running thru my poor little mind.... He knows that I am an emotional person and when he hit me up after class, thats all it took to get me going again. But it's cool though. Ya'll know I am a strong-willed chick. Hopefully, we can have a talk later and see if we can work on rebuilding the "situationship" that we once had. It's going to be very hard, but you can be stagnant if you hold grudges and feuds with people. Very hard.... But I'll get at him later on tonight....I'm getting all teary-eyed thinking about him.....
*Update*
Dude is back at work now. Papi and I had a semi long talk about everything over his vacation. As we speak, we are communicating more and acting more civil towards one another. Come to find out that we still love each other more than ever. I may go see him tomorrow since ma layover is in Downtown Baltimore. But knowing the two of us, we aint gonna want to leave each other when the time comes.
Happy News
I just found out ma dude Jeffie is graduating college in September. He is getting his associates in Associates in Computer Information Systems. I am so friqqin proud of him. We have been there for each other since the beginning of time. I knew him for nearly 2.5 years and to see him at this point, makes me inspired. People like that make me wanna work extra hard to get that degree and to kick down doors with steel timbs on. Shit, I am setting the tone in ma family for them to go to college and earn their degrees in spite of the negative hardships they have to face growing up. I want them to say "JerseyGirl(Given Name Inserted) did it, so I can do it as well." I know whats it's like to be in the hood and to have hardships come by. I can honestly say that I busted ma ass to get where I am at that point when that day comes.
*Update*
I am still proud of my friend, Jeff. We should be linking up together before our schedules get more hectic than ever. Tomorrow is my niece ♥ ♥Mariah's♥ ♥ 12th birthday. I brought her a journal so whenever she feels creative or needing to vent, she can turn to her "companion". I raised her from yay high and now she is maturing into the young lady she is becoming. I am extremely proud of her despite the hardships she had to face without her birth mother(which happens to be my sister)being in her life, in fact, she might as well be child.
Gotta Go, Gotta Leave
8.03.2005
Freeing Yourself....
It's over now. *Moment of Silence*
Things didn't work out for either one of us so we decided to go our seperate ways in help of a third person. It's hurting me right now, but this is something that has to be done for the moment. What doesn't kill me, makes me a stronger person as they say. At least that chapter in my life is officially closed and I can easily say that I am free. Free from the ties that we supposedly had in this "relationship". I guess I do believe in karma now. Currently I am blasting this song "Free" from Destiny's Child from their latest CD. I posted this song on hea before, at that time, it was juct cause I liked the song, but now it has a hidden meaning behind it and I can coincide with them pretty well. "you gon do you i'm gon do me...." mark them words. Real Talk. I am not bitter or anything, not by a longshot, but I'll just have to take that L, brush my shoulders off and try again(in the words of the late great Aaliyah).. Like I said, I'ma be alright you know how I do.
*Sang It Mariah.... I Gotta Sh-Shake It Off*
In other dramas, me and my mother was going at it last night. This is the last straw. I am completely tired of her shit. She calls herself trying to show face in front of her dude, so I spazzed out as usual. I think I am going to make that call to NC and see what kind of oppotunities they have down there becuase living in Jersey holds too much pain from my past and I can't be stagnated in my personal growth into a normal human being.
But I'm about to be out and do me for real. So can a sister get some words of reassurance.... cause I'ma need it for real.
P.S. New Pics of Me....
This is Me In My room Bored As Hell...
Experimenting With The Digicam Last Night
We was on the bus coming back from Garden State Mall in Paramus
We Was Wilding At The Food Court.... Our Lunch Was Good!!!
Things didn't work out for either one of us so we decided to go our seperate ways in help of a third person. It's hurting me right now, but this is something that has to be done for the moment. What doesn't kill me, makes me a stronger person as they say. At least that chapter in my life is officially closed and I can easily say that I am free. Free from the ties that we supposedly had in this "relationship". I guess I do believe in karma now. Currently I am blasting this song "Free" from Destiny's Child from their latest CD. I posted this song on hea before, at that time, it was juct cause I liked the song, but now it has a hidden meaning behind it and I can coincide with them pretty well. "you gon do you i'm gon do me...." mark them words. Real Talk. I am not bitter or anything, not by a longshot, but I'll just have to take that L, brush my shoulders off and try again(in the words of the late great Aaliyah).. Like I said, I'ma be alright you know how I do.
*Sang It Mariah.... I Gotta Sh-Shake It Off*
In other dramas, me and my mother was going at it last night. This is the last straw. I am completely tired of her shit. She calls herself trying to show face in front of her dude, so I spazzed out as usual. I think I am going to make that call to NC and see what kind of oppotunities they have down there becuase living in Jersey holds too much pain from my past and I can't be stagnated in my personal growth into a normal human being.
But I'm about to be out and do me for real. So can a sister get some words of reassurance.... cause I'ma need it for real.
P.S. New Pics of Me....
This is Me In My room Bored As Hell...
Experimenting With The Digicam Last Night
We was on the bus coming back from Garden State Mall in Paramus
We Was Wilding At The Food Court.... Our Lunch Was Good!!!
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